Monday, January 28, 2013

Trying to Figure It All Out

Yet i am not figuring out anything. I need to write, I want to write...

I started this blog months ago with that one simple sentence. How do we figure out how to accomplish all we want to do with all that we need to do. It seems daily my list of things to accomplish from day to day only grows longer...with no relief or help in sight. However, as a God fearing and knowing woman...my soul says that isn't true...so where does my first step begin. How do I became a fantastic woman of God, that is an amazing woman and thoughtful giving person. That is a model employee, avid scholar, aspiring law student and painter, writer and fun?! That seems like a lot to be aspiring to be...however, I know...that in my heart of hearts it is possible and i will be fabulous...once i arrive there...but how do i start? Does it start with a new better paying job so that my mind isn't always focused on living with just my children again? Does it start with a new place regardless of what i am making and i just lean on God to help me work it out? How do i find the time, space and peace in my current living situation to do the creative, fun, wonky things that I like to do without fear of criticism and judgement. It is enough to make someone crazy. Literally and figuratively. But for now i will continue persevering knowing that i am getting close. i can almost feel the life i am meant to be living. i am going to continue to make steps forward and continue my faith and belief that my breakthrough is around the corner. I know it...in my heart and soul i know it.

Until next time.

Danibelle

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