Thursday, February 26, 2009

Halo

so the last post was just me wanting to share the lyrics to a song that i love right now.

i hear that song and i see his face. i hear that song and i hear his voice...amazingly enough- it doesn't scare me. I am what you would call afraid of relationships. Committment makes me nervous. I am somewhat jaded because of my past experiences. But thinking of him and being with him makes me hopeful and giddy. I have forgotten all that pain and i don't even think about it...my mind knows that i am putting myself out there to get hurt but my heart is calm and collected. My heart doesn't feel like i am taking a risk at all..."i swore i'd never fall again...but this don't even feel like falling"

Crazy how that works...

It talks of walls...man have i got some tall ones built up around me, my heart, my kids, my life...and without even second thoughts i have started to open the doors to the walls...he isn't even working really hard...it is just natural...it is just him.

I hate cliches...i really do...but at the risk of sounding like one...he is different. This feels different...and i think i may have found my match in this unexpected and random meeting...

So i am cracking the door to my heart to see if there is room for him inside there...it will be up to him if the door gets opened all the way and if he will be comfortable there...I guess at this point we will see...

I will keep you posted.

D.

Inspired

I am figuring out that in order for me to blog I have to be inspired. I prefer to talk of things of substance or relay events and happenings of my life. I know that several things inspire me. My children inspire me to be a better person, mother and woman. they inspire me to find the fun and silly in life and not to worry about if anyone is watching. Music seriously inspires me...good beats; profound, sweet, "deep" lyrics; smooth and raspy voices or deep and strong voices...i love music.
This particular blog is going to be the lyrics to a song that i am really feeling right now...if you haven't heard Beyonce's new album i seriously encourage you to check it out. at first their were only a couple songs that i liked...but if you listen to what the girl is trying to tell you...open your heart and you will feel it...

Halo

Remember those walls i built?
Well baby their tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But i never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I've found my angel now.

It's like i've been awakened
Every rule i had you're breaking
It's the risk that I'm taking
I aint never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything i need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby i can feel your halo
I pray it won't fade away

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I am addicted to you light
I swore i'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget to pull me back to the ground again

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

the first one

Well...yet another tool of technology i am trying my hand at...the blog. I have always enjoyed journeling and writing...typing if fun...so why not blog. This post won't be long...just want to say hi to everyone who may be bored enough to read this. But i promise it should be interesting on any given day! Keep your eyes peeled and i will talk soon...

Purging

Relentless whispering spirit blows strangely after me. Wandering like a plum moon--deep summer sky He comes as gold breath...shadowy storm...